hey.

thattt close to suffer from seizure attack. jkjkjk. life's in fast forwardx3 mode nowadays. we're like rushing in between assignments, chaos-ing between group presentations and sprinting from classes to research and room only to calm the headache and stiffness resulted from it all.

we're forced to clear a few gigantic hurdles with a leap.

my legs are so short. hmm.

i feel the heat. burn, baby burn. hahahah.

90/10.

must shift focus from the calamity to the One who holds it all.

dddance in the storms.

<3

#mylifeasateachertrainee
#sem8PISMPJan2012
#soldiering on

even the way i talk, the way i see what's bared in front of my eyes, i reflected his demeanor. 

suddenly feeling dumb. arrr.

The Daze
do you feel better now? when the promised stars are now nothing but a pile of debris. could you taste the freedom now? when the titanium cuff sets you free with a loud thud on the keeper's left chest. would you take your leave and soar home now? when the place is but a diminishing ruins.
do you feel better now that your chokechain has been released?
do you feel me now?
-y.n

or my Annual Dinner WITHOUT a dress. +.+"

shalom.

Annual Dinner is a dinner held annually (figures.duh.) by my college (IPG Kampus Batu Lintang) at prestigious hotels. This year, it's gonna be held at the recently launched Imperial Hotel which adjoins Boulevard Shopping Mall.

And so, the dinner is to be held next Tuesday. i have approximately 6 days to find a dress. Last week i went to KL hoping to find THE dress but my search was to no avail. i bought a skater skirt instead, forgetting that i have sent all my nice blouses and dresses home. huarghhhh! so i tried finding a dress online and yeah, found one or two that were pleasing to my eyes. but the dinner is next week and i am sure that it can't reach my hands within this week. huarghhh!

And so, the Annual Dinner committees (JPP 2014/1015) held our meeting this evening. Allan selected me as his partner to be the emcees for the night (!). i said yes since it would be great to emcee an event. in high school, i was an emcee since i was in Form 2 and since then, i have been invited to emcee several important functions in my school and outside. studying here, i haven't gotten the chance to do so since there are so many emcees already emceeing and they are much much much much better than me. however, since this 'thang' is my passion, i have secretly wishing to emcee a function here for years.uncanny, no? sobsss. hahaha.

So, Praise the Lord for this open door! couldn't wait to break some legs on the stage! (Usually people love being on the stage for singing, dancing, and other performances but me, i love talking.)

however, i still don't have any dress, remember? i thought i'd just go to the dinner wearing some jeans and blouse but now that the situation has completely changed, what am i gonna wear???

my budget is also very tight right now.
my parents are not here to support me with extra money.
sobsss.

anyways, my roommate suggested that i go to India Street to buy one. there's this rather large store that sells dresses. so the solution now is to go there a.s.a.p. nonetheless, i'm afraid that THE dress won't be there since i've searched the entire Berjaya Times Square, KL and didn't find any.

so now i'm praying that pretty please, dear my right dress, please make your appearance once i go tomorrow or the day after and don't hide from my sight. i really need you.

hmm. another thing that's bugging my mind is my makeup and accessories. last year's Annual Dinner has proven that i should not do my own makeup. and time is running out for me to really plan my outfit for THE night.

so, these are a few countermeasure that i've come up with:
1. ask youngest sister, Mit to come and do my makeup before the function starts. - but she's far away. so, unlikely.
2. plan, buy and do everything myself.- which means disaster baybeh.
3. go to a salon at Boulevard before the function starts.- i have just enough money to feed myself. so, most unlikely.
4. ask somebody to do my makeup.- but i'm shy. (believe me. i'm actually a shy person. hahaha)

OTTOKE???????

It's so hard being a woman. i mean, a woman without her own salary. or rich background. or makeup skills. or dressing skills.

but i have God that is greater than any of my obstacles. even in this seemingly trivial-but-i-assure-you-it's-really-the-least-trivial problem.

helppp!