vapour.in.the.wind

Shalom.

It's been a while. Imma busy woman. hahaha. plus the internet coverage sucks. which is good and bad at the same time. but i still write.

this week i accepted the 5 day positive challenge after being tagged by Mdm Esther. She was my lecturer and an inspiring teacher and Christian for me. The challenge is to write 3 positive comments every day over 5 days. I really had a rough week- in fact the roughest in the history of worst practicum and being keeping myself away from the edge was a tough one. By completing this challenge, my focus was removed from me me me and what i thought about stuffs. Instead, i was able to call it a day and give thanks; for even it's the worst, the Best person is with us all the way anyway and anyhow. So, here are my entries:

Day 5- longgg Thursday

1. In the midst of mental block, i found these books in the library-> refer the attached pic. A few is written by Andrew Wright! Woots!
2. Changed my approach with my kids as suggested by ppl i consulted n it worked well in curbing the noise! Felt guilty because i was never that strict with them but it was what they needed. i needed it too.

Day 4- Rollercoaster Wednesday

As i'm about to complete this challenge, i realise that by reflecting my days like this, everyday miracle is magnified. God's love is in every situation, every emotion, every shape n every person. If we can't see it then perhaps we're viewing it the wrong way. So,
1.
When everything fell apart, i came to realise that this was bigger than me. I should stop carrying my own blame on my shoulders n start surrendering everything to His hands. Sometimes we try the hardest but still stuffs don't go our way. It's God way to teach us profounder lessons. Leaving my worries on the floor.

2. Consoled by a handful of wise ppl with their inspiring n thoughtful encouragement. Felt better in no time. Angels, they were.

3. Last night was one of those rare nights in which i managed to sleep without taking any pill. Mom said "try" n i tried n prayed.thank God for the comfort n rest.

#beingpositive
#eyesonHim

Day 3- Explosive Tuesday

1. Thattt close to give my kids a good scolding and pinches. Could feel myself almost blew up and broke down. Seeing their innocent faces made my heart engulfed with patience.

2. I knew that session was terrible. But my mentor was kind with the comments and marks. Reminded me not to be too hard on myself...

3. Free newspaper!!! Went looking for newspaper for tomorrow's lesson at Bau bus station. God bless the taukenio.

DAY 2- Hectic Monday

So i'm supposed to write 3 positive comments every day over 5 days.

1. Surprise! Back-to-back observation which was supposed to start next week wl kickstart on Tue. Praise the Lord my laptop, printer, and head worked well!

2. Prayed that i could sleep because i needed to function come Tue. Rested well and sound.

3. Sighed while treating my skin. Scars, bruises and cuts everywhere. Not to mention it's super dark. Even so, my scars represent what i've gone through to get here. I worked at paddy field under the blazing sun, carried logs until my shoulders reddened and became stiff, tapped rubber trees at 3 in the morning, climbed trees to pluck mangosteen and to hv fun, jumped from cliffs and fell countless times. My scars are my experience tattooed on my body. It's ugly; it's also my beauty.

So i'm supposed to write 3 comments every day over 5 days. And these 3 are for yesterday.

DAY 1

1. Even though the brief break was over n i felt like still wanna stay inside my cave for at least another year, i got to continue my life as a teacher trainee. Just a year ++ left now til i live my dream! Woohoo.
2. Thank God for all the kind and inspiring companions He sends me. Upah kalian besar di syurga...
3. Yesterday i missed 2 persons sooo badly that it brought me to tears. Even the rain felt me. PtL both of them called me. Feel so much better and ready to soldier on. Hoyeah!

#taggedby mdm Koh Esther 许以斯帖
#spreadpositivity

Dear me, in case you forgot this, if you are having one of those toughest moment, remember to put your eyes on God. stop trying to carry everything and let God be God. rawrrr, You.

Love,

yne.

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