Read an interesting article while blogwalking... And it's been a while since 'inspiration' visited my head/heart. so since i haven't got anything to write, let's read other people's quality writing instead. Thanks http://delaugusta.tumblr.com/post/48392571707/10-guys-every-christian-woman-must-avoid for the blessing.
So I was hanging out with some christian guys in Davis, CA and I thought I would never want my daughters to date these guys. hahahahah. So I thought, if I could tell my daughters the 10 guys I want her never to date, here’s what it would be. I’ll probably lose guy points for this but please share on facebook and twitter asking and answering the question, “Out of these 10 guys, which one bothers you the most?”
1. THE HEATHEN - This is the guy you keep thinking will change from his sinful ways. Girlfriend, you ain’t Jesus. And if Jesus ain’t changing him, what makes you think that you have the power to do so. The heathen is always the guy who is super awesome. He’s got a job. He doesn’t live with his mom. He’s loving and caring. The only problem, HE AIN’T SAVED. So many things wrong this picture. But I’ll say the main thing that’s wrong with the heathen is YOU. Why do you desire a guy who doesn’t know Jesus? What in you is attracted to a man who doesn’t want to serve God? That’s the real root of this. You gotta be careful of the heathen cuz he’s so awesome that he’ll slowly bring you into his web of sin. I’ve watched Holy women fall trap to the smooth, sexy devices of the worldly man. Compromising little by little, until you have no standards of holiness. Ladies, tell the heathen that you’ll be waiting in the center of God’s heart and if he wants to get with you, he has to get with God first. ‘nuff said…
2. THE FLAKER - This is the guy who never keeps his word.
See, it always start as not being able to commit because of some seemingly valid excuse. He’ll say something like, “I have a test, so I have to study extra hard.” or “Something came up at church and they need me.” These are all things that should be red flags. They don’t seem like bad excuses, but they are. If a man has a hard time keeping to his word on a consistent basis, it’s a sure sign of character and integrity flaws. A real man should be willing to keep his word at all costs. Obviously, there are situations where he might have to flake for a legitimate reason, but that seriously should be a once-in-a-lifetime kind of deal. Even if the small areas ladies. If he can’t keep his word with little things, it’ll be harder for him to keep his word the bigger things.
3. THE CHAMELEON - This is the guy who allows his social environment to change him. Ladies, this is a tricky one, because you want a guy who can hang and be comfortable in every circle no matter the class, race, or gender of the crowd. A healthy guy can be around anyone and be comfortable being himself without feeling like he needs to pretend to be a “doctor” when he’s with doctors, or a “lawyer” when he’s with the lawyers. What you don’t want, is the guy who always has to be just like everyone around him to fit in to feel comfortable. This guy usually suffers from strong insecurity and is still too underdeveloped is his manhood to know who he really is. A real man is a thermostat, not a thermometer. Meaning, he takes control of his atmosphere, he doesn’t let the atmosphere take control of him.
4. THE HULK - Obviously the guy who can’t control his temper. Now I’ve never understood why a lady would stay with a guy who has extreme fits of rage. STAY AWAY. Ladies, he’s got deeper issues than being angry. “The hulk” is the guy that gets angry over stupid stuff. The only time a man should get incredibly angry is at issues of injustice. Other than that, a mature man can keep his cool and control his anger. Now there are times where we get upset, but I’m talking about guys who are fine one minute and then get to a point where they almost want to get violent the next minute. This is the future wife beater, and if you want to stay bruise-free, you better leave him alone. “How do I know when it’s really rage?” Here’s the answer: DOES HE SCARE THE CRAP OUT OF YOU? The man’s job is to make the woman feel safe. If you and/or others feel unsafe around him because of his anger, it’s probably a good sign that you’re dating The Hulk. Go find yourself a superman or a spiderman, and let the Hulk stick to fighting his inner bad guys. hahahah
1. THE HEATHEN - This is the guy you keep thinking will change from his sinful ways. Girlfriend, you ain’t Jesus. And if Jesus ain’t changing him, what makes you think that you have the power to do so. The heathen is always the guy who is super awesome. He’s got a job. He doesn’t live with his mom. He’s loving and caring. The only problem, HE AIN’T SAVED. So many things wrong this picture. But I’ll say the main thing that’s wrong with the heathen is YOU. Why do you desire a guy who doesn’t know Jesus? What in you is attracted to a man who doesn’t want to serve God? That’s the real root of this. You gotta be careful of the heathen cuz he’s so awesome that he’ll slowly bring you into his web of sin. I’ve watched Holy women fall trap to the smooth, sexy devices of the worldly man. Compromising little by little, until you have no standards of holiness. Ladies, tell the heathen that you’ll be waiting in the center of God’s heart and if he wants to get with you, he has to get with God first. ‘nuff said…
2. THE FLAKER - This is the guy who never keeps his word.
See, it always start as not being able to commit because of some seemingly valid excuse. He’ll say something like, “I have a test, so I have to study extra hard.” or “Something came up at church and they need me.” These are all things that should be red flags. They don’t seem like bad excuses, but they are. If a man has a hard time keeping to his word on a consistent basis, it’s a sure sign of character and integrity flaws. A real man should be willing to keep his word at all costs. Obviously, there are situations where he might have to flake for a legitimate reason, but that seriously should be a once-in-a-lifetime kind of deal. Even if the small areas ladies. If he can’t keep his word with little things, it’ll be harder for him to keep his word the bigger things.
3. THE CHAMELEON - This is the guy who allows his social environment to change him. Ladies, this is a tricky one, because you want a guy who can hang and be comfortable in every circle no matter the class, race, or gender of the crowd. A healthy guy can be around anyone and be comfortable being himself without feeling like he needs to pretend to be a “doctor” when he’s with doctors, or a “lawyer” when he’s with the lawyers. What you don’t want, is the guy who always has to be just like everyone around him to fit in to feel comfortable. This guy usually suffers from strong insecurity and is still too underdeveloped is his manhood to know who he really is. A real man is a thermostat, not a thermometer. Meaning, he takes control of his atmosphere, he doesn’t let the atmosphere take control of him.
4. THE HULK - Obviously the guy who can’t control his temper. Now I’ve never understood why a lady would stay with a guy who has extreme fits of rage. STAY AWAY. Ladies, he’s got deeper issues than being angry. “The hulk” is the guy that gets angry over stupid stuff. The only time a man should get incredibly angry is at issues of injustice. Other than that, a mature man can keep his cool and control his anger. Now there are times where we get upset, but I’m talking about guys who are fine one minute and then get to a point where they almost want to get violent the next minute. This is the future wife beater, and if you want to stay bruise-free, you better leave him alone. “How do I know when it’s really rage?” Here’s the answer: DOES HE SCARE THE CRAP OUT OF YOU? The man’s job is to make the woman feel safe. If you and/or others feel unsafe around him because of his anger, it’s probably a good sign that you’re dating The Hulk. Go find yourself a superman or a spiderman, and let the Hulk stick to fighting his inner bad guys. hahahah
5. THE PUNK aka Loser - This is the guy who’s afraid of everything and has no courage. This is my least favorite guy. Now I’m not talking about being afraid of bugs and rats, cuz those are definitely gross and scary (don’t judge me haha). I’m talking about THE PUNK. This guy is afraid of taking risk. He wants to stay safe. He never steps out in faith. He’s always afraid to try something new. A real man lives for a challenge. He loves the adventure of doing crazy stuff. Watch out for the punk ladies, because he’ll keep your life boring and safe, and he’ll raise your kids to be boring little safe punks too. You want a man who’s not afraid to fail. Someone who’s not afraid to get beat up a little by life because he took a risk. If you want to know if you’re man is a punk, ask him, “When’s the last time you did something challenging and you failed?” If he can’t tell you the last time he failed at something, it’s probably because he’s playing it super safe in life, and HE’S A PUNK. (this one is going to make a lot of guys mad)
6. THE LIAR - This includes not just liars, but also the exaggerators. Now here’s the deal ladies. You gotta ask yourself this question, “Why does this ninja always lie or exaggerate about a situation?” You always want to look at the root. Typically a guy lies for one of three reasons. He lies because
1. …he’s afraid of the consequences of telling the truth. Any man who’s afraid to embrace the consequences of a particular action is not man enough to date you. A real man fully embraces every situation in front of him and tackles the consequences appropriately.
1. …he’s afraid of the consequences of telling the truth. Any man who’s afraid to embrace the consequences of a particular action is not man enough to date you. A real man fully embraces every situation in front of him and tackles the consequences appropriately.
2. …he’s trying to impress people. Now this is all bad, because a man needs to impress no one through lying. A real man knows that the truth about himself speaks more worth about him, than any lie he could ever create about himself. truth about me > lies about me
3. …he believes the lie is the truth. Now this is the scariest reason of them all. This means that your man is cray cray. He’s living in a dream state, and is afraid of reality. If you find that your man starts believing his lies, then ruuuuuuuuun. Run fast.
7. THE MAMA’S BOY - This is the guy who still lives at home with mom for no reason or all he does is talk about mama. The mama’s boy has a decent job, He’s graduated from school but he just can’t seem to leave the comfort of mama’s bosom to start his own nest. You’ve gotta watch out for this guy, because he’ll make you think that he just loooooves his mom and that’s why he’s still where he is. But, I’ve found that the mama’s boy has a problem because he doesn’t just “love” his mom. The problem is that he is DEPENDENT on his mom. That’s a problem. You need a man who loves and respects his mother dearly, but doesn’t want to live with her or spend the rest of his days with her. If your boyfriend is 28 and still living at home even though he has a decent job and isn’t in school, you need to check things out. Because as dependent as he is on mom, will show what you’ll have to be for him in the future. If you date the mama’s boy, you better be ready to be his crutch.
8. THE PLAYER - The Player is the guy who’s dating you because your just another level in his game. Ladies, you should always know the dating history of the guy you’re with. You gotta ask questions like, “What’s the longest you’ve ever been single? What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a relationship? How many girlfriends have you had?” Now of course don’t ask these questions all at once, cuz you’ll scare any legit man away. But you need to know if this guy is the one who just leaves girls hanging or is he really committed. Also be careful of the emotional player and his emotional games. Sometimes the player dates several women at a time just with his emotions. He’ll take you out on dates cuz you’re his girlfriend, but he’ll ride on the emotions of several other women, finding himself caught in their emotional roller coasters and he won’t find that anything is wrong with that. This is the guys who’s up late hours texting and chatting with girls about their problems. He always going into intimate emotional areas with females, and masks by saying, “we’re just friends.” Does he chat with guys the same way he chats with the ladies? Of course not, cuz he’s an emotional player. His emotions, heart, and devotion need to be towards God and YOU.
8. THE PLAYER - The Player is the guy who’s dating you because your just another level in his game. Ladies, you should always know the dating history of the guy you’re with. You gotta ask questions like, “What’s the longest you’ve ever been single? What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a relationship? How many girlfriends have you had?” Now of course don’t ask these questions all at once, cuz you’ll scare any legit man away. But you need to know if this guy is the one who just leaves girls hanging or is he really committed. Also be careful of the emotional player and his emotional games. Sometimes the player dates several women at a time just with his emotions. He’ll take you out on dates cuz you’re his girlfriend, but he’ll ride on the emotions of several other women, finding himself caught in their emotional roller coasters and he won’t find that anything is wrong with that. This is the guys who’s up late hours texting and chatting with girls about their problems. He always going into intimate emotional areas with females, and masks by saying, “we’re just friends.” Does he chat with guys the same way he chats with the ladies? Of course not, cuz he’s an emotional player. His emotions, heart, and devotion need to be towards God and YOU.
9. THE SAVIOR - This is the guy who feels that the world can not go on unless he helps it. This is a warning especially to the lady who’s dating a preacher, pastor, and ministry man. As a minister, I know that we suffer from Savior’s complex. We feel it’s our job to save everyone and everything. This man will hurt you in the future, because typically the Savior complex is rooted in a need to find one’s value in helping others. Now helping others is not a bad thing, but when it becomes to balm to heal inner-deficiency, then it becomes a deeper issue. This is scary because he’ll jump to meet everyone’s need and your relationship will suffer. You need a man who loves to help people, but he doesn’t define his self-worth.
10. THE GRINCH - The Grinch is the opposite of the savior. The Grinch is the guy who is stingy, greedy, and a moocher. He doesn’t tithe, donate, or even think to help others. He’s just worried about him and his own. Beware of this guy because believe it or not, you’re gonna need something from him in the relationship, and there’s going to come a time where he doesn’t want to make the sacrifice to give towards you because he’s the grinch. Don’t date the grinch unless you want to be rich, successful, lonely, bitter, and angry with no friends. You want a generous man who gives because he’s a giver. The only time the grinch gives is because he feels obligated. He’s cheap, and so is his love.
bila keadaan tidak menyebelahi, ingatlah Yesus sentiasa di pihak kita.
meski tak dapat ku lihat kemenangan itu, dan yang ada hanyalah kabus kegagalan, bersama Yesus keterobosi waktu melintasi masa hadapan dan lebih lagi.
dan di sana ku lihat keabadian sebuah kemenangan!
sekarang, yang perlu hanya percaya.
dan terus melangkah.
rabun tak semestinya buta.
tak nampak tak semestinya tak melihat.
dengan iman, pasti ku sampai ke sana!
thank you, JESUS! <3
Shalom. Can't stop singing this song. Thanks for You being You, Jesus.
Chord Terima Kasih (Jason)
Chord Terima Kasih (Jason)
Key : E
Bait :
E
Setiap JanjiMu Tuhan
Emaj9 A E/G#
Kusimpan Dalam Lubuk Hatiku
F#m
Lewati Setiap Masalah
B E
Tiap Tetes Airmata Dalam Hidupku
Bm
JanjiMu Menopang Hidupku
C#
KasihMu Menuntun Langkahku
F#m Am
Dalam Setiap Waktu
E/B F#m B E
Penolongku Yang Aku Percaya
Reff :
E B/D# C#m E/B A
T’rima Kasih Buat
Kasih SetiaMu
F#m
PenyertaanMu Sempurna
B
E B
JanjiMu Tak Pernah Terlambat Menolongku
E B/D# C#m E/B A Am/C
T’rima Kasih
Kubert’rima Kasih
B/E F#m B
E
Buat Kasih SetiaMu Di Dalam Hidupku
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Shalom.
I took a personality test just now and here's my result. Once i learned i was INFP, it all sort of 'clicked'. i had my 'aaa' moment. Being part of the smallest pie-slice at once appealled to me and repelled me. anyways,
INFP PERSONALITY
INFP personalities are true idealists, always looking for the hint of good in even the worst of people and events, searching for ways to make things better. While they may be perceived as calm, reserved, or even shy, INFPs have an inner flame and passion that can truly shine. Comprising just 4% of the population, the risk of feeling misunderstood is unfortunately high for the INFP personality type - but when they find like-minded people to spend their time with, the harmony they feel will be a fountain of joy and inspiration.
Being a part of the Diplomat (NF) personality group, INFPs are guided by their principles, rather than by logic (Analysts), excitement (Explorers), or practicality (Sentinels). When deciding how to move forward, they will look to honor, beauty, morality and virtue - INFPs are led by the purity of their intent, not rewards and punishments. People who share the INFP personality type are proud of this quality, and rightly so, but not everyone understands the drive behind these feelings, and it can lead to isolation.
All that is gold does not glitter; not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither; deep roots are not reached by the frost.
WE KNOW WHAT WE ARE, BUT KNOW NOT WHAT WE MAY BE
At their best, these qualities enable INFPs to communicate deeply with others, easily speaking in metaphors and parables, and understanding and creating symbols to share their ideas. The strength of this intuitive communication style lends itself well to creative works, and it comes as no surprise that many famous INFPs are poets, writers and actors. Understanding themselves and their place in the world is important to INFPs, and they explore these ideas by projecting themselves into their work.
INFPs have a talent for self-expression, revealing their beauty and their secrets through metaphors and fictional characters.
INFPs’ ability with language doesn’t stop with their native tongue, either - as with most people who share the Diplomat personality types, they are considered gifted when it comes to learning a second (or third!) language. Their gift for communication also lends itself well to INFPs’ desire for harmony, a recurring theme with Diplomats, and helps them to move forward as they find their calling.
LISTEN TO MANY PEOPLE, BUT TALK TO FEW
Unlike their Extraverted cousins though, INFPs will focus their attention on just a few people, a single worthy cause - spread too thinly, they’ll run out of energy, and even become dejected and overwhelmed by all the bad in the world that they can’t fix. This is a sad sight for INFPs’ friends, who will come to depend on their rosy outlook.
If they are not careful, INFPs can lose themselves in their quest for good and neglect the day-to-day upkeep that life demands. INFPs often drift into deep thought, enjoying contemplating the hypothetical and the philosophical more than any other personality type. Left unchecked, INFPs may start to lose touch, withdrawing into "hermit mode", and it can take a great deal of energy from their friends or partner to bring them back to the real world.
Luckily, like the flowers in spring, INFP’s affection, creativity, altruism and idealism will always come back, rewarding them and those they love perhaps not with logic and utility, but with a world view that inspires compassion, kindness and beauty wherever they go.
Famous INFPs:
William Shakespeare
J.R.R. Tolkien
Björk
Johnny Depp
Julia Roberts
Lisa Kudrow
Tom Hiddleston
Homer
Virgil
Fictional INFPs:
“Frodo Baggins” from The Lord of the Rings
“Anne of Green Gables”
“Fox Mulder” from X-Files
“Deanna Troi” from Star Trek
“Wesley Crusher” from Star Trek
INFP STRENGTHS
- Idealistic - INFPs' friends and loved ones will come to admire and depend on them for their optimism. Their unshaken belief that all people are inherently good, perhaps simply misunderstood, lends itself to an incredibly resilient attitude in the face of hardship.
- Seek and Value Harmony - People with the INFP personality type have no interest in having power over others, and don't much care for domineering attitudes at all. They prefer a more democratic approach, and work hard to ensure that every voice and perspective is heard.
- Open-Minded and Flexible - A live-and-let-live attitude comes naturally to INFPs, and they dislike being constrained by rules. INFPs give the benefit of the doubt too, and so long as their principles and ideas are not being challenged, they'll support others' right to do what they think is right.
- Very Creative - INFPs combine their intuitive nature with their open-mindedness to allow them to see things from unconventional perspectives. Being able to connect many far-flung dots into a single theme, it's no wonder that many INFPs are celebrated poets and authors.
- Passionate and Energetic - When something captures INFPs' imagination and speaks to their beliefs, they go all in, dedicating their time, energy, thoughts and emotions to the project. Their shyness keeps them from the podium, but they are the first to lend a helping hand where it's needed.
- Dedicated and Hard-Working - While others focusing on the challenges of the moment may give up when the going gets tough, INFPs (especially Assertive ones) have the benefit of their far-reaching vision to help them through. Knowing that what they are doing is meaningful gives people with this personality type a sense of purpose and even courage when it comes to accomplishing something they believe in.
INFP WEAKNESSES
- Too Idealistic - INFPs often take their idealism too far, setting themselves up for disappointment as, again and again, evil things happen in the world. This is true on a personal level too, as INFPs may not just idealize their partners, but idolize them, forgetting that no one is perfect.
- Too Altruistic - INFPs sometimes see themselves as selfish, but only because they want to give so much more than they are able to. This becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, as they try to push themselves to commit to a chosen cause or person, forgetting to take care of the needs of others in their lives, and especially themselves.
- Impractical - When something captures INFPs' imagination, they can neglect practical matters like day-to-day maintenance and simple pleasures. Sometimes people with the INFP personality type will take this asceticism so far as to neglect eating and drinking as they pursue their passion or cause.
- Dislike Dealing With Data - INFPs are often so focused on the big picture that they forget the forest is made of individual trees. INFPs are in tune with emotions and morality, and when the facts and data contradict their ideals, it can be a real challenge for them.
- Take Things Personally - INFPs often take challenges and criticisms personally, rather than as inspiration to reassess their positions. Avoiding conflict as much as possible, INFPs will put a great deal of time and energy into trying to align their principles and the criticisms into a middle ground that satisfies everybody.
- Difficult to Get to Know - INFPs are private, reserved and self-conscious. This makes them notoriously difficult to really get to know, and their need for these qualities contributes to the guilt they often feel for not giving more of themselves to those they care about.
INFP RELATIONSHIPS
INFPs are dreamy idealists, and in the pursuit of the perfect relationship, this quality shows strongest. Never short on imagination, INFPs dream of the perfect relationship, forming an image of this pedestalled ideal that is their soul mate, playing and replaying scenarios in their heads of how things will be. This is a role that no person can hope to fill, and people with the INFP personality type need to recognize that nobody's perfect, and that relationships don't just magically fall into place - they take compromise, understanding and effort.
LOVE ALL, TRUST A FEW, DO WRONG TO NONE
Fortunately these are qualities that INFPs are known for, and while it can be a challenge to separate long-fostered fantasy from reality, INFPs' tendency to focus their attention on just a few people in their lives means that they will approach new relationships wholeheartedly, with a sense of inherent value, dedication and trust.
INFPs share a sincere belief in the idea of relationships - that two people can come together and make each other better and happier than they were alone, and they will take great efforts to show support and affection in order to make this ideal a reality.
But INFPs aren't necessarily in a rush to commit - they are, after all, Prospecting (P) types, and are almost always looking to either establish a new relationship or improve an existing one - they need to be sure they've found someone compatible. In dating, INFPs will often start with a flurry of comparisons, exploring all the ways the current flame matches with the ideal they've imagined. This progression can be a challenge for a new partner, as not everyone is able to keep up with INFPs' rich imagination and moral standards - if incompatibilities and conflict over this initial rush mount, the relationship can end quickly, with INFPs likely sighing that "it wasn't meant to be."
As a relationship takes hold, people with the INFP personality type will show themselves to be passionate, hopeless romantics, while still respecting their partners' independence. INFPs take the time to understand those they care about, while at the same time helping them to learn, grow and change. While INFPs are well-meaning, not everyone appreciates what can come across as constantly being told that they need to improve - or, put another way, that they're not good enough. INFPs would be aghast to find that their intents were interpreted this way, but it's a real risk, and if their partner is as averse to conflict as INFPs themselves, it can boil under the surface for some time before surfacing, too late to fix.
BETTER THREE HOURS TOO SOON THAN A MINUTE TOO LATE
This aversion to conflict, while contributing greatly to stability in the relationship when done right, is probably the most urgent quality for INFPs to work on. Between their sensitivity and imagination, INFPs are prone to internalizing even objective statements and facts, reading into them themes and exaggerated consequences, sometimes responding as though these comments are metaphors designed to threaten the very foundations of their principles. Naturally this is almost certainly an overreaction, and INFPs should practice what they preach, and focus on improving their ability to respond to criticism with calm objectivity, rather than irrational accusations and weaponized guilt.
But that's at their uncommon worst - at their best, INFPs do everything they can to be the ideal partner, staying true to themselves and encouraging their partners to do the same. INFPs take their time in becoming physically intimate so that they can get to know their partners, using their creativity to understand their wants and needs, and adapt to them. People with this personality type are generous in their affection, with a clear preference for putting the pleasure of their partners first - it is in knowing that their partners are satisfied that INFPs truly feel the most pleasure.
shalom.
am preparing songs for BEM The Times Leadership Seminar which is in 3 weeks. so, i am learning how to sing and play the guitar for the song BejanaMu by JPCC Worship. i found out that it's quite hard singing the verse and finding chords that match my oh-so limited range. i don't even know which one is most suitable for me since my guitar is out of tune. huarghhh!
am preparing songs for BEM The Times Leadership Seminar which is in 3 weeks. so, i am learning how to sing and play the guitar for the song BejanaMu by JPCC Worship. i found out that it's quite hard singing the verse and finding chords that match my oh-so limited range. i don't even know which one is most suitable for me since my guitar is out of tune. huarghhh!
Key : C Intro : C Gmaj7/B C Gmaj7/B C Gmaj7/B C G Verse 1 : C G/B Kekuatan Di Jiwaku C G Ketenangan Batinku C G/B Ada Dalam Hadirat-Mu C Kumenyembah-Mu Verse 2 : C G/B Tersungkur 'Ku Dikaki-Mu C G Rasakan Hadirat-Mu C G/B Takkan 'Ku Melepaskan-Mu Am D Kau Cahaya Bagiku Chorus : G D Mengiring-Mu Seumur Hidupku Em C Masuk Dalam Rencana-Mu Bapa Am G/B Pikiranku, Kehendakku C D Kuserahkan Pada-Mu G D Harapanku Hanya Di Dalam-Mu Em C Kukan Teguh Bersama-Mu Tuhan Am G/B Jadikanku, Bejana-Mu C D Untuk Memuliakan-Mu
Key : D Intro : D Amaj7/C# D Amaj7/C# D Amaj7/C# D A Verse 1 : D A/C# Kekuatan Di Jiwaku D A Ketenangan Batinku D A/C# Ada Dalam Hadirat-Mu D Kumenyembah-Mu Verse 2 : D A/C# Tersungkur 'Ku Dikaki-Mu D A Rasakan Hadirat-Mu D A/C# Takkan 'Ku Melepaskan-Mu Bm E Kau Cahaya Bagiku Chorus : A E Mengiring-Mu Seumur Hidupku F#m D Masuk Dalam Rencana-Mu Bapa Bm A/C# Pikiranku, Kehendakku D E Kuserahkan Pada-Mu A E Harapanku Hanya Di Dalam-Mu F#m D Kukan Teguh Bersama-Mu Tuhan Bm A/C# Jadikanku, Bejana-Mu D E Untuk Memuliakan-MuKey : F Intro : F Cmaj7/E F Cmaj7/E F Cmaj7/E F C Verse 1 : F C/E Kekuatan Di Jiwaku F C Ketenangan Batinku F C/E Ada Dalam Hadirat-Mu F Kumenyembah-Mu Verse 2 : F C/E Tersungkur 'Ku Dikaki-Mu F C Rasakan Hadirat-Mu F C/E Takkan 'Ku Melepaskan-Mu Dm G Kau Cahaya Bagiku Chorus : C G Mengiring-Mu Seumur Hidupku Am F Masuk Dalam Rencana-Mu Bapa Dm C/E Pikiranku, Kehendakku F G Kuserahkan Pada-Mu C G Harapanku Hanya Di Dalam-Mu Am F Kukan Teguh Bersama-Mu Tuhan Dm C/E Jadikanku, Bejana-Mu F G Untuk Memuliakan-Mu
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or my Annual Dinner WITHOUT a dress. +.+"
shalom.
Annual Dinner is a dinner held annually (figures.duh.) by my college (IPG Kampus Batu Lintang) at prestigious hotels. This year, it's gonna be held at the recently launched Imperial Hotel which adjoins Boulevard Shopping Mall.
And so, the dinner is to be held next Tuesday. i have approximately 6 days to find a dress. Last week i went to KL hoping to find THE dress but my search was to no avail. i bought a skater skirt instead, forgetting that i have sent all my nice blouses and dresses home. huarghhhh! so i tried finding a dress online and yeah, found one or two that were pleasing to my eyes. but the dinner is next week and i am sure that it can't reach my hands within this week. huarghhh!
And so, the Annual Dinner committees (JPP 2014/1015) held our meeting this evening. Allan selected me as his partner to be the emcees for the night (!). i said yes since it would be great to emcee an event. in high school, i was an emcee since i was in Form 2 and since then, i have been invited to emcee several important functions in my school and outside. studying here, i haven't gotten the chance to do so since there are so many emcees already emceeing and they are much much much much better than me. however, since this 'thang' is my passion, i have secretly wishing to emcee a function here for years.uncanny, no? sobsss. hahaha.
So, Praise the Lord for this open door! couldn't wait to break some legs on the stage! (Usually people love being on the stage for singing, dancing, and other performances but me, i love talking.)
however, i still don't have any dress, remember? i thought i'd just go to the dinner wearing some jeans and blouse but now that the situation has completely changed, what am i gonna wear???
my budget is also very tight right now.
my parents are not here to support me with extra money.
sobsss.
anyways, my roommate suggested that i go to India Street to buy one. there's this rather large store that sells dresses. so the solution now is to go there a.s.a.p. nonetheless, i'm afraid that THE dress won't be there since i've searched the entire Berjaya Times Square, KL and didn't find any.
so now i'm praying that pretty please, dear my right dress, please make your appearance once i go tomorrow or the day after and don't hide from my sight. i really need you.
hmm. another thing that's bugging my mind is my makeup and accessories. last year's Annual Dinner has proven that i should not do my own makeup. and time is running out for me to really plan my outfit for THE night.
so, these are a few countermeasure that i've come up with:
1. ask youngest sister, Mit to come and do my makeup before the function starts. - but she's far away. so, unlikely.
2. plan, buy and do everything myself.- which means disaster baybeh.
3. go to a salon at Boulevard before the function starts.- i have just enough money to feed myself. so, most unlikely.
4. ask somebody to do my makeup.- but i'm shy. (believe me. i'm actually a shy person. hahaha)
OTTOKE???????
It's so hard being a woman. i mean, a woman without her own salary. or rich background. or makeup skills. or dressing skills.
but i have God that is greater than any of my obstacles. even in this seemingly trivial-but-i-assure-you-it's-really-the-least-trivial problem.
helppp!
shalom.
Annual Dinner is a dinner held annually (figures.duh.) by my college (IPG Kampus Batu Lintang) at prestigious hotels. This year, it's gonna be held at the recently launched Imperial Hotel which adjoins Boulevard Shopping Mall.
And so, the dinner is to be held next Tuesday. i have approximately 6 days to find a dress. Last week i went to KL hoping to find THE dress but my search was to no avail. i bought a skater skirt instead, forgetting that i have sent all my nice blouses and dresses home. huarghhhh! so i tried finding a dress online and yeah, found one or two that were pleasing to my eyes. but the dinner is next week and i am sure that it can't reach my hands within this week. huarghhh!
And so, the Annual Dinner committees (JPP 2014/1015) held our meeting this evening. Allan selected me as his partner to be the emcees for the night (!). i said yes since it would be great to emcee an event. in high school, i was an emcee since i was in Form 2 and since then, i have been invited to emcee several important functions in my school and outside. studying here, i haven't gotten the chance to do so since there are so many emcees already emceeing and they are much much much much better than me. however, since this 'thang' is my passion, i have secretly wishing to emcee a function here for years.uncanny, no? sobsss. hahaha.
So, Praise the Lord for this open door! couldn't wait to break some legs on the stage! (Usually people love being on the stage for singing, dancing, and other performances but me, i love talking.)
however, i still don't have any dress, remember? i thought i'd just go to the dinner wearing some jeans and blouse but now that the situation has completely changed, what am i gonna wear???
my budget is also very tight right now.
my parents are not here to support me with extra money.
sobsss.
anyways, my roommate suggested that i go to India Street to buy one. there's this rather large store that sells dresses. so the solution now is to go there a.s.a.p. nonetheless, i'm afraid that THE dress won't be there since i've searched the entire Berjaya Times Square, KL and didn't find any.
so now i'm praying that pretty please, dear my right dress, please make your appearance once i go tomorrow or the day after and don't hide from my sight. i really need you.
hmm. another thing that's bugging my mind is my makeup and accessories. last year's Annual Dinner has proven that i should not do my own makeup. and time is running out for me to really plan my outfit for THE night.
so, these are a few countermeasure that i've come up with:
1. ask youngest sister, Mit to come and do my makeup before the function starts. - but she's far away. so, unlikely.
2. plan, buy and do everything myself.- which means disaster baybeh.
3. go to a salon at Boulevard before the function starts.- i have just enough money to feed myself. so, most unlikely.
4. ask somebody to do my makeup.- but i'm shy. (believe me. i'm actually a shy person. hahaha)
OTTOKE???????
It's so hard being a woman. i mean, a woman without her own salary. or rich background. or makeup skills. or dressing skills.
but i have God that is greater than any of my obstacles. even in this seemingly trivial-but-i-assure-you-it's-really-the-least-trivial problem.
helppp!
Last weekend my hockey mates and i went to KL to participate Pesta Hoki IPGM 2014 (ke-9). 3 years ago if you were to tell me that i'd be IPBL hockey team's defense player i'd say, "nahhh. nay-verrr."
honestly, winning 3rd place for the tournament was an unexpected victory! God has worked His miracles and praise Him for that!
When Bam, Ajie & Saha recounted the history of Batu Lintang Hockey Club, i was almost brought to tears. Years before, these dudes fought hard for a place for us to play and also in maintaining the existence of this club.
i tell you, semangat pemain hoki sangat lain. i'm not mocking sportsperson in other fields but cinta terhadap hoki oleh semua pemain, for me, is very exemplary. As Sarawak Hockey team's coach said " semua orang boleh main bola sepak. semua orang boleh main bola jaring. semua orang boleh main bola tampar. tapi tak semua orang boleh main hoki." sobs.
in IPBL, we play hockey at an abandoned tennis court. The seniors told us that they were they ones who took care of the court. They removed the weeds with their bare hands, fixed the torn net, and cleaned the court all over. Every Tuesday we get to practice at Stadium Hoki Negeri, thanks to Mr. Dana's generosity. going to KL, we invested our own money. BLHC players who preceded us were so kind and gave us some money to cover our budget. Thus, we could afford to buy or pretty jerseys and BLHC club t-shirt (refer picture above).
we built the team based on friendship. no selection was needed cause we didn't hv enough players. i myself were also invited by my dear roommate Mayrone about a year ++ ago since they didn't hv enough players then. basically we never had enough players. hahahahaha. we'd trained amongst ourselves. boys vs girls. sometimes some of the boys became the girls' defenders due to the reason stated before.
when we received so much support, sacrificed every cent we had, and basically put everything on the line, we went with a huge boulder on our shoulders.
we seeked to prove ourselves. and with God's grace, we did it! our success might seem trivial to others but we fought with all our strength, sweats and blood. and so, ptL He has made us fruitful.
anyways, apart from the medal, i went back with scars and bruises and injury. i'm proud of them since they are the evidences that i gave my all. (actually, it showed how i haven't really mastered the game. better effort next time, heinny).
the next day after the tournament ended, we measured KL City. limping around, my joy overpowered my pain. we played games at Berjaya Times Square Theme Park and hang out at Suria KLCC entrance.
at night, Mayrone and i moved to IPBA to join JPP fellas cause the next morning we'd have our benchmarking at IPBA. that night i couldn't sleep since my nervous system was still affected by DNA mixer that i hv played in the morning. pfft.
in the morning, we had an early senamrobik session with IPBA's JPP and sem 6 teacher trainees. it was fun!
then, we had a formal meeting with IPBA's JPP.
by the time everything ended, i was so weary. even writing this made me more weary. sobsss.
and so, the point is, i had such a great time with great ppl. it was a refreshing feeling- to be able to go out of my circle and experience the love for hockey with equally passionate friends.
oh oh ohhh. one more thing. i really think the organiser should reflect on how they planned and executed the tournament. i suggest they follow the norms of grouping teams- by vote, not schedule it according to your own logics. no matter how you try to justify and how we look at it, it was wrong.
anyways, thanks for the hospitality... peace. <3
“since feeling is first,”
by e.e. cummings
since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world
my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don’t cry
—the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids’ flutter which says
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don’t cry
—the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids’ flutter which says
we are for each other: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life’s not a paragraph
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life’s not a paragraph
And death i think is no parenthesis
Vitae summa brevis spem nos vetat inchohare longam
by Ernest Dowson
"The brevity of life forbids us to entertain hopes of long duration" —Horace
They are not long, the weeping and the laughter,
Love and desire and hate:
I think they have no portion in us after
We pass the gate.
They are not long, the days of wine and roses:
Out of a misty dream
Our path emerges for a while, then closes
Within a dream.
by Ernest Dowson
"The brevity of life forbids us to entertain hopes of long duration" —Horace
They are not long, the weeping and the laughter,
Love and desire and hate:
I think they have no portion in us after
We pass the gate.
They are not long, the days of wine and roses:
Out of a misty dream
Our path emerges for a while, then closes
Within a dream.
Songby John Donne
Go and catch a falling star,
Get with child a mandrake root,
Tell me where all past years are,
Or who cleft the devils foot;
Teach me to hear mermaids singing,
Or to keep off envy's stinging,
And find
What wind
Serves to advance an honest mind.
If thou be'st born to strange sights,
Things invisible to see,
Ride ten thousand days and nights
Till Age snow white hairs on thee;
Thou, when thou return'st wilt tell me
All strange wonders that befell thee,
And swear
No where
Lives a woman true and fair.
If thou find'st one let me know;
Such a pilgrimage were sweet.
Yet do not; I would not go,
Though at next door we might meet.
Though she were true when you met her,
And last, till you write your letter,
Yet she
Will be
False, ere I come, to two or three.
Go and catch a falling star,
Get with child a mandrake root,
Tell me where all past years are,
Or who cleft the devils foot;
Teach me to hear mermaids singing,
Or to keep off envy's stinging,
And find
What wind
Serves to advance an honest mind.
If thou be'st born to strange sights,
Things invisible to see,
Ride ten thousand days and nights
Till Age snow white hairs on thee;
Thou, when thou return'st wilt tell me
All strange wonders that befell thee,
And swear
No where
Lives a woman true and fair.
If thou find'st one let me know;
Such a pilgrimage were sweet.
Yet do not; I would not go,
Though at next door we might meet.
Though she were true when you met her,
And last, till you write your letter,
Yet she
Will be
False, ere I come, to two or three.
Lullaby
by W. H. Auden
Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm:
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.
Soul and body have no bounds:
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant enchanted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grave the vision Venus sends
Of supernatural sympathy,
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
Among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermit's carnal ecstacy.
Certainty, fidelity
On the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell
And fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry:
Every farthing of the cost.
All the dreaded cards foretell.
Shall be paid, but from this night
Not a whisper, not a thought.
Not a kiss nor look be lost.
Beauty, midnight, vision dies:
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
Such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless,
Find our mortal world enough;
Noons of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary powers,
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love.
by W. H. Auden
Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm:
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.
Soul and body have no bounds:
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant enchanted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grave the vision Venus sends
Of supernatural sympathy,
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
Among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermit's carnal ecstacy.
Certainty, fidelity
On the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell
And fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry:
Every farthing of the cost.
All the dreaded cards foretell.
Shall be paid, but from this night
Not a whisper, not a thought.
Not a kiss nor look be lost.
Beauty, midnight, vision dies:
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
Such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless,
Find our mortal world enough;
Noons of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary powers,
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love.
La Figlia Che Piange (The Weeping Girl)
by T. S. Eliot
Stand on the highest pavement of the stair —
Lean on a garden urn —
Weave, weave the sunlight in your hair —
Clasp your flowers to you with a pained surprise —
Fling them to the ground and turn
With a fugitive resentment in your eyes:
But weave, weave the sunlight in your hair.
So I would have had him leave,
So I would have had her stand and grieve,
So he would have left
As the soul leaves the body torn and bruised,
As the mind deserts the body it has used.
I should find
Some way incomparably light and deft,
Some way we both should understand,
Simple and faithless as a smile and a shake of the hand.
She turned away, but with the autumn weather
Compelled my imagination many days,
Many days and many hours:
Her hair over her arms and her arms full of flowers.
And I wonder how they should have been together!
I should have lost a gesture and a pose.
Sometimes these cogitations still amaze
The troubled midnight, and the noon's repose.
by T. S. Eliot
Stand on the highest pavement of the stair —
Lean on a garden urn —
Weave, weave the sunlight in your hair —
Clasp your flowers to you with a pained surprise —
Fling them to the ground and turn
With a fugitive resentment in your eyes:
But weave, weave the sunlight in your hair.
So I would have had him leave,
So I would have had her stand and grieve,
So he would have left
As the soul leaves the body torn and bruised,
As the mind deserts the body it has used.
I should find
Some way incomparably light and deft,
Some way we both should understand,
Simple and faithless as a smile and a shake of the hand.
She turned away, but with the autumn weather
Compelled my imagination many days,
Many days and many hours:
Her hair over her arms and her arms full of flowers.
And I wonder how they should have been together!
I should have lost a gesture and a pose.
Sometimes these cogitations still amaze
The troubled midnight, and the noon's repose.
I, Being Born a Woman, and Distressedby Edna St. Vincent Millay
I, being born a woman, and distressed
By all the needs and notions of my kind,
Am urged by your propinquity to find
Your person fair, and feel a certain zest
To bear your body's weight upon my breast:
So subtly is the fume of life designed,
To clarify the pulse and cloud the mind,
And leave me once again undone, possessed.
Think not for this, however, this poor treason
Of my stout blood against my staggering brain,
I shall remember you with love, or season
My scorn with pity — let me make it plain:
I find this frenzy insufficient reason
For conversation when we meet again.
I, being born a woman, and distressed
By all the needs and notions of my kind,
Am urged by your propinquity to find
Your person fair, and feel a certain zest
To bear your body's weight upon my breast:
So subtly is the fume of life designed,
To clarify the pulse and cloud the mind,
And leave me once again undone, possessed.
Think not for this, however, this poor treason
Of my stout blood against my staggering brain,
I shall remember you with love, or season
My scorn with pity — let me make it plain:
I find this frenzy insufficient reason
For conversation when we meet again.
Looking For Your Face
From the beginning of my life
I have been looking for your face
but today I have seen it
I have been looking for your face
but today I have seen it
Today I have seen
the charm, the beauty,
the unfathomable grace
of the face
that I was looking for
the charm, the beauty,
the unfathomable grace
of the face
that I was looking for
Today I have found you
and those who laughed
and scorned me yesterday
are sorry that they were not looking
as I did
and those who laughed
and scorned me yesterday
are sorry that they were not looking
as I did
I am bewildered by the magnificence
of your beauty
and wish to see you
with a hundred eyes
of your beauty
and wish to see you
with a hundred eyes
My heart has burned with passion
and has searched forever
for this wondrous beauty
that I now behold
and has searched forever
for this wondrous beauty
that I now behold
I am ashamed
to call this love human
and afraid of God
to call it divine
to call this love human
and afraid of God
to call it divine
Your fragrant breath
like the morning breeze
has come to the stillness of the garden
You have breathed new life into me
I have become your sunshine
and also your shadow
like the morning breeze
has come to the stillness of the garden
You have breathed new life into me
I have become your sunshine
and also your shadow
My soul is screaming in ecstasy
Every fiber of my being
is in love with you
Every fiber of my being
is in love with you
Your effulgence
has lit a fire in my heart
for me
the earth and sky
has lit a fire in my heart
for me
the earth and sky
My arrow of love
has arrived at the target
I am in the house of mercy
and my heart
is a place of prayer.
has arrived at the target
I am in the house of mercy
and my heart
is a place of prayer.
~Anon.
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.— Anonymous (The New Jerusalem Bible (NJB)
Love is always patient- regardless of time, distance, highs and lows, as well as kind of people one's dealing with.
Love is always kind- everlastingly giving and never asking for favour.
Love is never boastful and conceited- it's not proud of and self-satisfied in one's achievement, possession and abilities.
Love is NEVER rude and selfish- It never harms. It's graceful and merciful and forgiving. It prioritises the other person. It prioritises God the most.
Love does not take offense and is not resentful- Love does not seek for revenge, nor does it keep an avenge. Madly, in love, does not mean to be out of control. Love is being in control of our emotions.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sin- It seeks to build people up, not to bring people down. Love hates sin but is kind to the sinner. After all, Love has redeemed all sinners if only they believe.
Love delights in the truth- Love takes pleasure in digging and living His words. There are of countless amounts of truth but love cares about and is able to distinguish the true Truth from made-up ones. Even if one is being rejected, shamed and persecuted by the world for doing so, one never holds love back.
Love is always ready to excuse- regardless of how ugly situations get, it thrives.
Love is always ready to trust- Love does not dwell in the past nor does it fear the future.
Love is always ready to hope- That the best is yet to come. And everything works for one's good anyway.
Love is always ready to endure whatever comes- Love is always faithful in small things, and also big things. Love treats both the same- with great care. Eyes, mind and heart are always ready to conquer and be victorious.
De liefde (Love) Dutch gospel song
Even though I would speak all the languages,
From Chinese to Sanskrit.
And I could understand everyone,
But hadn't love.
What else would I be?
Than words in the wind.
A dreamer who is lost,
And cannot find his dreams anymore.
From Chinese to Sanskrit.
And I could understand everyone,
But hadn't love.
What else would I be?
Than words in the wind.
A dreamer who is lost,
And cannot find his dreams anymore.
Even though I knew,
All the rules and laws.
And I had the faith,
To move mountains.
But I did not live my life with love,
Why would I still exist?
If the most beautiful theories,
In a matter of time will fall apart.
All the rules and laws.
And I had the faith,
To move mountains.
But I did not live my life with love,
Why would I still exist?
If the most beautiful theories,
In a matter of time will fall apart.
Love, love,
This word is too big.
But love, that is life,
Even life through death.
Love, love,
Tell me the secret,
Of a God who is always love.
This word is too big.
But love, that is life,
Even life through death.
Love, love,
Tell me the secret,
Of a God who is always love.
I want to force,
But love is patient.
And when I want to punish,
Love forgives the debt.
Even when I am egoistic,
Love will share everything.
Sometimes I kick a lot,
But love kneels down on the floor.
But love is patient.
And when I want to punish,
Love forgives the debt.
Even when I am egoistic,
Love will share everything.
Sometimes I kick a lot,
But love kneels down on the floor.
And soon, when everything is finished,
People had expected the least.
God will teach us the glory of the light.
In love I recognize His Face.
People had expected the least.
God will teach us the glory of the light.
In love I recognize His Face.
Break my heart for what break Yours, Lord. Teach me the way You love me. <3
Don’t spend yourself in the small copper coins
of complaint and accusation.
Don’t answer those in authority, those who fancy
themselves all-powerful,
with grubby, fingered words
for which you’ll be picked up at three in the morning.
Answer with pictures that no one has ever painted,
answer with thoughts which no one has ever thought,
answer with verses which no one has ever fashioned,
answer with a language which no one has ever uttered.
Not with the sword, poet, will you sly tyranny
but with the freshness of spring and autumn’s maturity.
Beaten and blood-stained, strike your gold coins,
heavy with the destiny of your age,
heavy with your own destiny,
golden coins bearing your own likeness,
reflecting mankind’s suffering
against the background
of man’s two million years upon our planet.
Such coins
shall stay in circulation even after ten thousand years,
valid like life’s rebellious spring,
like life repeating itself, ever-youthful—
while the coins
with the theatrical, proud and imperial gestures—
the measure of pride reflecting stupidity—
will long have lain dead in the museum show-cases
under artificial light,
shunning the sun,
dead for a thousand years.
of complaint and accusation.
Don’t answer those in authority, those who fancy
themselves all-powerful,
with grubby, fingered words
for which you’ll be picked up at three in the morning.
Answer with pictures that no one has ever painted,
answer with thoughts which no one has ever thought,
answer with verses which no one has ever fashioned,
answer with a language which no one has ever uttered.
Not with the sword, poet, will you sly tyranny
but with the freshness of spring and autumn’s maturity.
Beaten and blood-stained, strike your gold coins,
heavy with the destiny of your age,
heavy with your own destiny,
golden coins bearing your own likeness,
reflecting mankind’s suffering
against the background
of man’s two million years upon our planet.
Such coins
shall stay in circulation even after ten thousand years,
valid like life’s rebellious spring,
like life repeating itself, ever-youthful—
while the coins
with the theatrical, proud and imperial gestures—
the measure of pride reflecting stupidity—
will long have lain dead in the museum show-cases
under artificial light,
shunning the sun,
dead for a thousand years.
— Ondra Lysohorsky
shalom.
think i'm self absorbed? well, everyone is, someway somehow. :p
so,
1. i love being dependent. to Him. people say i'm very strong but i hate it that they think so.
2. i am super clumsy. always knock over stuffs even in my room. cost me loads of scars and bruises. yuck.
3. i LA-HUV eating. i don't take meals. i just eat all day long. which explains my weight and stretchmarks. yuck yuck yuck. :(
4. i was once fair. now i am dark because i play sports. i love sports but really despise my sunburnt, dark and dull skin.
5. i am secretly romantic.
6. i'd rather keep my opinion to myself than being honest. i hate the idea of hurting others.
7. i love books. i must have books or at least a book on my bed, study table, table in teacher's office, bag & going-out bag. basically i must have one at reach. Current craze are Love & Misadventure and The Cinderella Rule. been rereading them again and again cause they're very good! and cause i am broke. hahaha.
8. i am always secretly wanting to become a novelist. i wrote some half-way piece but yeah, i have issues in having the commitment to finish them. so i write here. hahaha.
9. i am very terrible in handling horror movie.
10. i adore Cristiano Ronaldo, Remy Ishak, David Archuleta, Lee Seung Gi, Brooke Fraser and Amy Lee. i do not fall into the bandwagon of becoming celebrity's die-hard-fans but i like them because they have this charming attitude and smile. and also they are very good in what they are doing.
11. i am very terrified of big dogs. i had Suri once but she died. one day i was chased by a larggge dog and thus, i'll be all panicking and sometimes crying when i see one. huh.
12. i love watching hardcore comedy like Munahhirzi and New Girl and Hot Cleveland.
13. when i feel extremely, i am capable of writing philosophical pieces. hahhahahaha!
14. i will always be socially awkward. i feel hard to fit in or belong to some group.
15. no matter what people do to me, i am always able to forgive them. i will feel very very very sad but life is for loving, is it not?
16. imma proud self-proclaimed sweet tooth.
17. imma tea person.
18. i was awarded state's best debater. this is my biggest pride so far. but don't expect me to go around acting all diva. i just am not a fighter anymore. i don't understand why people would hurt other people. does it make them feel better about themselves? i believe in loving my enemy because they play crucial roles in my life. they note us our mistakes and make us want to do and be better.
19. i was not really close with my family. my siblings and i fought all the time and my parents were very strict with me. now, i wish mom would talk with me all day & we'd bake cakes every day, i wish dad would be around more and be healthier than he is now and my siblings are my biggest supporters.
20. i love shopping for books, food and dresses.
the end.
think i'm self absorbed? well, everyone is, someway somehow. :p
so,
1. i love being dependent. to Him. people say i'm very strong but i hate it that they think so.
2. i am super clumsy. always knock over stuffs even in my room. cost me loads of scars and bruises. yuck.
3. i LA-HUV eating. i don't take meals. i just eat all day long. which explains my weight and stretchmarks. yuck yuck yuck. :(
4. i was once fair. now i am dark because i play sports. i love sports but really despise my sunburnt, dark and dull skin.
5. i am secretly romantic.
6. i'd rather keep my opinion to myself than being honest. i hate the idea of hurting others.
7. i love books. i must have books or at least a book on my bed, study table, table in teacher's office, bag & going-out bag. basically i must have one at reach. Current craze are Love & Misadventure and The Cinderella Rule. been rereading them again and again cause they're very good! and cause i am broke. hahaha.
8. i am always secretly wanting to become a novelist. i wrote some half-way piece but yeah, i have issues in having the commitment to finish them. so i write here. hahaha.
9. i am very terrible in handling horror movie.
10. i adore Cristiano Ronaldo, Remy Ishak, David Archuleta, Lee Seung Gi, Brooke Fraser and Amy Lee. i do not fall into the bandwagon of becoming celebrity's die-hard-fans but i like them because they have this charming attitude and smile. and also they are very good in what they are doing.
11. i am very terrified of big dogs. i had Suri once but she died. one day i was chased by a larggge dog and thus, i'll be all panicking and sometimes crying when i see one. huh.
12. i love watching hardcore comedy like Munahhirzi and New Girl and Hot Cleveland.
13. when i feel extremely, i am capable of writing philosophical pieces. hahhahahaha!
14. i will always be socially awkward. i feel hard to fit in or belong to some group.
15. no matter what people do to me, i am always able to forgive them. i will feel very very very sad but life is for loving, is it not?
16. imma proud self-proclaimed sweet tooth.
17. imma tea person.
18. i was awarded state's best debater. this is my biggest pride so far. but don't expect me to go around acting all diva. i just am not a fighter anymore. i don't understand why people would hurt other people. does it make them feel better about themselves? i believe in loving my enemy because they play crucial roles in my life. they note us our mistakes and make us want to do and be better.
19. i was not really close with my family. my siblings and i fought all the time and my parents were very strict with me. now, i wish mom would talk with me all day & we'd bake cakes every day, i wish dad would be around more and be healthier than he is now and my siblings are my biggest supporters.
20. i love shopping for books, food and dresses.
the end.
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Love,
yne
Love,
yne
Shalom.
I've tried writing a few songs. But i couldn't come up with any deserving tune for them. so yeah.
My kids said stories are boring. They love songs. So i tried coming up with a tune for Four Friends story in Year 3 textbook. And i succeed! Praise the Lord! I guess love makes you do stuffs you'd never think you could do.
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| Four Friends. Composer: me (lels!) |
So Much
went to places i went.
are in places i had been.
i knew you from your voice
saw you with your camera
met you in seconds
touched you in a blink
love you from afar.
listen, sweet soul.
hold me loose and hang me from uncertainty
sometimes i am strong and i swear
i could wade through the world
to get to you
but sometimes my heart is faint
without seeing the final end.
~yne.fny